Commotion

Since I have last visited my blog and now that I am writing; a series of events took place. Birthday celebration followed by season of campus placements,followed by Durga Pujo shopping, exams, Diwali….omg, so much so that I had to adjust with life’s flow and nothing happened as I wished. No fantasies. No slow-motion scenes.

Engineering college placements go like this,one has to study hard….as hard as possible because generally its a percentile based selection but then they say, unless your efforts are guided by luck,you won’t be the lucky one(though I promise to not comment on this belief). But the other side of the coin is strange. In case,you don’t get placed when 50% of your classmates are; people will question your character,your grades,your attitude and your medium of studying(funniest 😛 ) and in case being a 6 pointer or a backlog student you get placed,then be prepared for the wrath…..you are either a girl(who impressed the HR somehow….really? 😮 ) or you are too lucky for not being asked anything properly! I mean,why comment on others’ success?
Though, you definitely get a tag of getting placed or being unplaced for sometime(ridiculous huh?).

In the meantime, I stopped having rum chocolates, had pani-puri more frequently than ever 😀 ,drank chilled drinks almost everyday and did everything that will affect my health; though ended up gaining weight 😦 😛 . The hostel food is always boring but even the nights become worse when you have to watch two films per night to kill boredom,while others sleep peacefully! How come people sleep so much?

I got drained of all energy before Durga Pujo and there were least pandal-visits this time which I had to compensate during this Diwali. Not only during exams,but also during outings and Diwali, I go sleepless;may be recently I am lacking the mental peace required to sleep well or I am working too much, that’s irritating my nerves 😡

But honestly speaking,among all these humdrum affairs….I fought the most with my man,he had to somehow timeshare office work and me(my tension,insecurities,anger and mood swings); hats off to him…..followed by my fighting with mom,dad and sister; am lucky enough to have them,they who understand me, bear with me and never judge me. You know what? the best feeling is when you realize that you will only have your parents to support you for everything and nobody else. People who truly love us are there even when nothing is going well in life 🙂

P.S: Someone said,”Its karma of a person that affects future. People who don’t make friends,hangout and don’t share great bond with people around even end up losing chances”. I don’t agree but I will let my readers think about it too. Please feel free to share your thoughts about this on the comments section below.

A drop of happiness!

Life is much more happening than I ever expected.There are days when I almost forget my principles that I should boast of and yet many when I get stuck to them and my conventional ideologies.Through years,my self-control on certain things increased and self-pampering replaced the gap.
While a kid,I always wondered if being a non-precocious and studious child of mum will solve all humane crisis of this middle-class life and you know,this supposition was trust-worthy too till only few years back.But as soon as one starts getting the meaning of life,the thorough idea is murdered by stomping casualty-hard work-intoxication triad 😦 

The all-Bengali-family-favorite dialogues(okay,they are monologues more) ,”Ada jol kheye porashuna kor” (ie. to work really hard for studies-cant decode the rest) and “porashuna kore panch joner ekjon hote hobe” (ie. be wise enough so as to gain respect) works till one joins an Engineering College and then ideologies get messed up 😀 .What one learns at the end of the day is:pampering thyself and working strategically(without stressing thyself) is the best policy ever! and not what we were taught in our Moral Science books 😉 Marks and money withdrawn somewhere develops a semipermeable layer between,in our brain and rest all follows.

But,there are more distractions in life nowadays(I am only 21 years 9 months old though) with health magazines,surfing sessions,chatting with seniors,listening to music and watching Bengali films(this is intoxicating);well,sometimes cuddling my love too ♥ .To all who think I have taken up Engineering because I love it,it isn’t true you know.I love Computer Science since 8th standard which was followed by my love for writing poems and blog.Therefore,I am happy with both of them right now.

I think,its more important to live life the way it suits us,not the way we once planned it or our parents had foreseen.Happiness is in discovering the thirst of the soul and finding the path for fulfillment of dreams.There is no god other than Karma.What am I saying? omg….wait…..these are so mummy-like advisory sentences.Period.Its an outburst. 🙂