Fitting in the clothes of nature

We were all close to making things fall in place and reaching our dreams, when THE virus hit the world so hard that we started focusing on our existence and making ends meet, over anything else: be it education or settlements in life. In the beginning it was just scary, with citizens of other countries falling prey to this deadly disease and eventually vacating their space but slowly it came nearer and way more perceptible. Watching the condition of US, UK, UAE and Italy was distressing though; the sudden lockdown in India did mess with my mind. No meeting friends, no shopping(omg! I can’t believe 😮 ) and being in house arrest has rendered me become a better cook with baking skills 😉 , a talkative sister, a black hole for mom’s mood swings, a gardener and lazy reader(you know I have become a wiki lover recently, I explore random stuff with patience).

Went into that phase where I had a lot to write but couldn’t decide on what exactly I should as I couldn’t concentrate! That’s absolutely normal for me(you know why 😛 ). I started with ‘Ikigai‘ to keep on track but again couldn’t finish it. It went on for months with the only physical contact my shoes and earrings had with me, was when I went to Spencer’s once in two weeks for grocery. You know those mundane days where you wake up, have some breakfast (mine is rice as I wake up late these days) and then cling onto your laptop for the whole day stretching your back and legs at intervals, play with pets, forgetting that you should atleast go for a walk after every 1.5/2 hours for metabolic rate optimization( y’ah reminiscing about my Gym sessions at office 😉 ) or listening to music (because that’s almost impossible after hours of conference calls!); those actually happened.

Life is very different with family and away from them, say, food habits and timings. It wasn’t easy for anyone but on a broader aspect, I observed that mothers are quite contented with us, all non-resident kids(I know I am not 😆 ) who returned home after months despite the odds and are staying for months! though I still can’t make round chapatis but I honestly tried it 😛 According to some, lockdown was a necessary evil, nature is taking a revenge through THE virus; but then nobody talks about the collateral damage in each one of our lives! Yes there can be debates on whether India’s economy is more important or human lives; balancing daily activities and mental health is more important or suppression of number of positive cases! but then I am deviating your attention 😛 and we have already been part of such discussions under our social media handles.

Frankly speaking, parenting one’s own parents was also challenging because Indian parents weren’t careful about and aware of the measures, when the spread just started. Social distancing for social animals in a society was impracticable. Having said that, having experienced all that we haven’t imagined and nobody knew how to deal with, this much into the struggle of keeping ourselves healthy, we shouldn’t give up, no matter how much the world outside regards us 😀

P.S.: I am quite depressed for the last few days about sudden death of an actor and for the army martyrs at the border. Hope everything gets better here.

Commotion

Since I have last visited my blog and now that I am writing; a series of events took place. Birthday celebration followed by season of campus placements,followed by Durga Pujo shopping, exams, Diwali….omg, so much so that I had to adjust with life’s flow and nothing happened as I wished. No fantasies. No slow-motion scenes.

Engineering college placements go like this,one has to study hard….as hard as possible because generally its a percentile based selection but then they say, unless your efforts are guided by luck,you won’t be the lucky one(though I promise to not comment on this belief). But the other side of the coin is strange. In case,you don’t get placed when 50% of your classmates are; people will question your character,your grades,your attitude and your medium of studying(funniest 😛 ) and in case being a 6 pointer or a backlog student you get placed,then be prepared for the wrath…..you are either a girl(who impressed the HR somehow….really? 😮 ) or you are too lucky for not being asked anything properly! I mean,why comment on others’ success?
Though, you definitely get a tag of getting placed or being unplaced for sometime(ridiculous huh?).

In the meantime, I stopped having rum chocolates, had pani-puri more frequently than ever 😀 ,drank chilled drinks almost everyday and did everything that will affect my health; though ended up gaining weight 😦 😛 . The hostel food is always boring but even the nights become worse when you have to watch two films per night to kill boredom,while others sleep peacefully! How come people sleep so much?

I got drained of all energy before Durga Pujo and there were least pandal-visits this time which I had to compensate during this Diwali. Not only during exams,but also during outings and Diwali, I go sleepless;may be recently I am lacking the mental peace required to sleep well or I am working too much, that’s irritating my nerves 😡

But honestly speaking,among all these humdrum affairs….I fought the most with my man,he had to somehow timeshare office work and me(my tension,insecurities,anger and mood swings); hats off to him…..followed by my fighting with mom,dad and sister; am lucky enough to have them,they who understand me, bear with me and never judge me. You know what? the best feeling is when you realize that you will only have your parents to support you for everything and nobody else. People who truly love us are there even when nothing is going well in life 🙂

P.S: Someone said,”Its karma of a person that affects future. People who don’t make friends,hangout and don’t share great bond with people around even end up losing chances”. I don’t agree but I will let my readers think about it too. Please feel free to share your thoughts about this on the comments section below.